Internal Arugment

Most of the time I am my own worst Enemy. I do more damage than any outside party. For example twice this week I was supposed to get up & work out, but I didnt b/c i wanted to sleep. This may seem reasonable if I had gone to bed late....or sheer exhaustion, but laziness is not acceptable. Furthermore, when I am lazy & want to sleep in I typically am cranky during the day, overeat & am generally tired/miserable. Why! Why would I ever hit snooze instead of getting up when I am almost certain to have a bad day.

I wish I could understand why I try to set myself up to have a rotten day - - this does not make sense to me. Why do I fight myself along with any other battles I have going on.. This is my delema for day...... :(

If it is not obvious - I have had a bad week for exercising & eating.......

I was watching the biggest loser last night & a lot of the contestants, seem to have some other issue they are ignoring which is why they overeat. This got me to thinking.... Do I have some secret issue I am ignoring & trying to eat away??? I cannot come up with any glaring issues I am hiding from, but I will try to explore this a little further. Maybe I will uncover some secret something that I am avoiding?

99 Red Balloons

St. Louis has an annual balloon race, and the night before the race is a balloon glow. I think this is pretty unique to St. Louis & I was excited that I was able to go this year. I am also fortunate b/c I live in the CWE & can walk to the balloon glow...which was great b/c it was packed & I would have parked further away than I live.

It was really cool, and I got a few pictures. Mariah & I were pretending to be professional photographers :)

Saturday, while watching Suze Orman (see previous post) I was able to watch the balloon race out my window. Perfect view of all of the balloons racing around town :)

I wanna be Suze Orman when I Grow Up

Yesterday, after I got out of the shower, I was immediately sucked into a Suze Orman PBS special. I, unexpectedly, spend 1.5 hrs watching Suze, and thinking I wanna be here, or my version of her, when I grow up. She has a very inspiring story. At age 30, she was a waitress and decided she wanted to do something else. Then through a series of events, became a top stock broker at Merrill Lynch.....and we all know where she is today. Her topic was Women & Money. She has a great topic, that everyone should be interested in, and she is a great public speaker. I love stories like hers. Where people rise above all sorts of crazy obstacles and land on top of the world. I hope to someday conquer something like this... My first step is to figure out what I am supposed to overcome and what I am supposed to be....minor details.....

For more info on Suze - check out her site or her show.
http://www.suzeorman.com/

It's all about Heart

This weekend, I got tickets through work to a Cheap Trick, Heart & Journey concert. My work has thoroughly spoiled my by occasionally providing the tickets to a sporting event or a concert that are the best seats available & you are treated like loyalty. It provides you a peek into how the other side lives. I had tickets in the box for a concert. I was not even aware you could have 'box' seats at a concert. Nikki & I were in the 'party box,' under the pavilion where we had a table & a waiter to bring us everything we needed! We also has VIP parking and our own entrance. it was great!!



Anyway, I digress, b/c altho the night was great, & I was spoiled, that is not what I wanted to write about.



I wanted to write about Heart. They were awesome. The band was 3 women & 3 men, and it was clear from the very first note that this band was all about the women. Heart was popular in the 70s & 80s. The band has switched members fairly often with the 2 constant members being Ann & Nancy Wilson. Anyway, these women are in their 50s and they have as much energy on stage as anyone. Their sound is big and booming and I loved it. They have to be one of the first huge bands (21 songs in top 40) that was all about women. That is so empowering. They were not afraid to stand out and rise above.



This got me to think, what can I do to forge my path. what can i do that no woman or no one has done before. I know I will ever do anything as ground breaking as a women-lead rock band, but I would like to leave my own mark. The only task now is to figure out what that mark is............. All I know is that is has to be 'All about Heart'

Responsibility

In general, people consider me a very responsible person. I pay my bills on time, I don't excessively spend money, I go to work when I am supposed to, I regularly follow through on commitments with friends.....however, I seem to take no responsibility for anything I eat. That is one area, where I still think it is okay to behave like a 5 year old. Why cant I have a cupcake for a snack and then McDonald's for lunch? That's what I want to do. Even though I know I should really eat the lunch I packed. What is my deal? I hardly ever splurge on shopping, yet my diet is more like splurge all the time, & randomly eat healthy. It seems like a way that I am struggling to hold onto childhood. But it is unhealthy, so Unfortunately, I need to face the music & be responsible!

Family Funnies - Best Father's Day Ever

One of the best things about my family is our sense of humor. We have lots of funny stories that we like to tell. I am going to try to occasionally share these. Here is my first one. I hope you enjoy these as much as my family does.

Best Father’s Day Ever
Can you Spare a Square / How Much do you Love Heinz?
On one particular Father’s Day, my family went out to a local restaurant to celebrate. While we were there a few incidents to make it a day to remember. Once our food came, my brother, Josh, wanted some ketchup on his hash browns. He grabbed the nearest bottle of Heinz, and gave the glass bottle a great shake. As luck would have it, the previous customer had neglected to screw the lid on the entire way. The ketchup shot out of the bottle all over the place. All over the plate, table, and of course Josh’s white t-shirt. Some of our family tried not to laugh, but not me. I couldn’t hold it in, I was laughing til I had tears in my eyes.

Then as we were leaving, mom stopped to use the restroom. Nothing unusual about that. In fact, it would be weird if she or I did not have to use the restroom after a meal. As mom got out of the van at home, she had a whole strip of toilet paper hanging down the back of her pants. It had inadvertently been tucked into her jeans. Again we were laughing hysterically, & Dad said it was the best father’s day ever.

Perfect Life?

Is there any such thing as a perfect life? Even if there is, is it worth pursuing?
I know this is a random why to start a blog, but this is my thought for the day.

I want to use this blog to explore some of the following topics:

• happiness
• men (boys)
• career (women in career)
• faith
• family
• books
• weight
• anything else inspirational

I have a really strong interest in anything that gets people motivated and I would like to explore any of this. One of my ultimate goals (which I plan to share intermittently throughout) is to help people or motivate them anyway I can. Perhaps eventually I would like to have a career that allows me to work on this full time. In the interim, I would like to motivate people any way I can in the present.

I suspect as I blog more I will learn how to develop a more concrete thought or point to express :)

I the mean time I appreciate your patience and thanks for reading!

Getting Started

I have been talking about this blog for almost 2 months now. It is just time to get started, even if it is not perfect!